One Wild and Precious Life

I recently read a great post over on Enjoying The Small Things that began with this quote...  

Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?
~Mary Oliver

David and I have been contemplating some big changes in our lives.  And that quote has been brewing in my head ever since I read it.  It spoke to my soul and really boiled down all my scattered thoughts into one question that I needed to answer.  What do I want to do with the life that I have right here, right now?

For a few months, David and I have been going through the process of reevaluating all that we have, what we do everyday, and making sure that we are on the right path.  One of the big areas of question surrounds my current job situation.  I originally went back to full-time work so that we could enjoy a 2nd pay check, insurance benefits, and paid vacations. The small but steady income came, the vacation and insurance benefits did not.

I built an amazing team and have created some really awesome work that I am proud of. But every morning when I would drop Little B up at daycare, I kept asking myself "what am I doing all this for?  I am not getting ALL of the 'pros' that make all this worth it."  And then I would ask myself that question again as I dragged my sleepy body to work after being up all night with a sick baby girl that had caught yet another cold from daycare.  And that question would pop up once again as I crashed into bed exhausted, realizing that another day had gone by where I had barely seen my husband.

So David and I have made a decision.  I am quitting my job.  Holy smack, I am quitting my job!

I am excited and terrified all at the same time.  Excited to have the energy and time to spend with my family.  Nervous that we are giving up that 2nd paycheck.  Excited to go back to freelance marketing that works with my family's schedule.  Nervous that this decision could come back and punch me in the face.  And as all my thoughts add up, I stop and think, "What is my plan for my one wild and precious life?"

My plan is to enjoy this moment right here, right now.  Watch my little baby grow into a little girl.  Kiss my husband and appreciate him everyday.  See my friends and family and have the energy to celebrate their greatness.  And focus on having faith that things will all work out just as they should.

So wish me luck, friends!  It is going to be a wild and precious ride.