As some of you may or may not know, my "real-life" job is being a consultant for software start up in Austin. Recently, the owner of the company presented me with an amazing opportunity - the VP of Marketing role. I am not going to lie and act all modest... Hell no. I think an actual squeal of glee came out of me. I would be the first woman on the leadership team. I would be a key player in the growth and strategy of the company. I was so excited, ready to jump in, create this amazing team, and spew out some kick ass marketing. My head was spinning with ideas. It was my dream job that I knew I could rock.... but with one big, fat catch. It requires a 60 - 70 hour work week. Mother F*^$!
And with that statement my squeal of glee quickly turned into a deflated groan. I knew immediately that my answer would be no. The thought of someone else raising my little girl, missing dinners and bedtimes, only seeing her asleep. She is only little once and I'll be damned if I am gonna miss it. And then add missing my husband, family, friends to that. I just could not bear it.
So I told them no.
And now the job that I currently hold is in question as the project that I am on is winding down.
And while I know that my decision to say no is the right decision, I am still sad and angry at the situation. I want what I want. I want to have it all... the family, the career, time for friends and myself. And maybe I am naive. Maybe that is just not possible - Ambition plus a family that you actually get to enjoy. No one should need to work 70 hours a week. That is crazy talk.
So I am feeling a bit defeated and rejected today. I am feeling that this is still a man's world. I feel stupid that I can't seem to figure this whole motherhood and career thing out.
Any words of wisdom from the mamas out there?
Image via Mary Ruffle
And with that statement my squeal of glee quickly turned into a deflated groan. I knew immediately that my answer would be no. The thought of someone else raising my little girl, missing dinners and bedtimes, only seeing her asleep. She is only little once and I'll be damned if I am gonna miss it. And then add missing my husband, family, friends to that. I just could not bear it.
So I told them no.
And now the job that I currently hold is in question as the project that I am on is winding down.
And while I know that my decision to say no is the right decision, I am still sad and angry at the situation. I want what I want. I want to have it all... the family, the career, time for friends and myself. And maybe I am naive. Maybe that is just not possible - Ambition plus a family that you actually get to enjoy. No one should need to work 70 hours a week. That is crazy talk.
So I am feeling a bit defeated and rejected today. I am feeling that this is still a man's world. I feel stupid that I can't seem to figure this whole motherhood and career thing out.
Any words of wisdom from the mamas out there?
Image via Mary Ruffle
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